Dear Diary 014 [summer's over, going back to therapy, & redecorating my room]

We're already half-way through September, and I'm not completely sure how I feel about it. The temperature is starting to cool down at night, which are the first signs of the fall and winter months. As someone who struggles with mental health, I definitely thrive in the sun.

I love the changing of the seasons, but in the same breathe, I get nervous about what this means for my mental health. Especially this year. The pandemic is still going strong in the US, and even though indoor dining has opened up, it's not necessarily something I feel comfortable with.

I know that during the fall there are still a lot of outdoor activities available, but I don't know what this means during the colder months. I love spending the winter in cafes, eating out with my friends, and going to the bars & clubs. This year? I don't think any of that is happening. I mean, I don't know. Maybe things will change between now and then.

Redecorating my Room

In other news, I've started redecorating my room. I want to move out soon, but I honestly haven't been happy with my room for a while now. Since I've been spending much more time at home, I knew it was time to redecorate. I've been slowly buying a few things to spruce up the space. I got a couch cover, some new pillow covers, and new photo frames! It's just a few things, but my space feels so fresh. I'm honestly obsessed.

Going Back to Therapy

I've been struggling for my mental health for a few months now, and while I've been using all the coping mechanisms that my old therapist had taught me, I knew it was time to go back to therapy. I had noticed that my mood was plummeting and my anxiety was increasing, and since I didn't want it to get worse, I called a professional.

As of now, I've only been to two sessions (3 by the time you read this), but I honestly feel so much better at the end of every session. It's such a nice way to talk through your thoughts, and just work on yourself in general. I have always felt that therapy is something that everyone should go to. Talking to a therapist is such a non-judgement safe space. Even though I've only gone to a couple of sessions, I already know that it was a great idea.

For the most part the last month has been pretty slow, but eventful at the same time? I think that's where I'm going to end this post. How have you guys been? Let me know! As always, sending you love, strength, and positivity xx