Dear Diary, #2
mercury retrograde.
I have to say the Mercury Retrograde is fucking with me. I know a lot of you don't believe in astrology, but I wholeheartedly do.
I feel like whenever there's a Mercury Retrograde, I overthink life. Now, I know what you're thinking "melina, you always overthink everything", and you're not wrong by thinking that. I just feel like I overthink...differently? Instead of overthinking things about my day to day life and stuff in my short-term future, I feel like I think about my life as a whole.
The last few days have been filled with thoughts of what I want out of life. What changes need to be made so I can be 100% happy. Where do I want to be in a few years? How do I reach those goals?
I've been exhausted with all these thoughts to say the least.
As exhausted as I've been, I have to say that I've been weirdly motivated by all these thoughts. It kind of makes me want to work harder, and reach my goals sooner rather than later.
Now my thoughts haven't been all goal/work oriented, they've also been thoughts about my personal life. I had a deep talk with my best friend, Jill, last week. We talked about everything going on in our lives til 3am. Some of the topics of conversation definitely put me in this weird mental space, but overall I felt grateful for the way my life's gone.
I don't want to get too into it, mainly because it's something I don't feel too comfortable talking about at the moment (who knows, I might change my mind, and write a whole post about it next week!), but I am happy with who I am and where I am right now in life. Definitely proud of myself for sure.
new project.
One thing that really has me pumped is this new project I've been working on non-stop. While I can't tell you about it now, I promise you, you will find out about it in the next few months for sure. This is a huge project. Bigger than anything I've ever done before.
I have a whole bunch of emotions running through me constantly at the moment. The main ones though are nerves and excitement. I am so excited to be able to share with you all what it is.
It's something I've been wanting to do for at least a year now, but I never built up the courage to do. I'm pleased to announce that I finally took the plunge.
Like I said before, I can't really say anything now, but you'll definitely hear about it soon.
using up makeup.
One thing I've been working on this year is not buying so much makeup! I've been working on using up the makeup I currently have. I finished up two foundations, and am almost done with two highlighters!
I feel like I own so much makeup, it's almost ridiculous. While I don't want to hit pan on all my eye shadows, I want to use more of them up. This is partly inspired by Cleia and Polished & Inspired. The other thing that inspired me was the concept of me trying to be less wasteful.
I think I've been doing pretty well so far, I have only bought things that I need or have run out of and needs to be replaced. I haven't bought a single eye shadow palette in 2019! It helps that there really hasn't been palette that has caught my eye enough for me to want to purchase it.
We'll see how I continue out throughout the year!
That's literally been my life in a nutshell since I wrote my last diary post/last personal post! I really enjoy writing these posts. They're honestly so therapeutic, and I think it allows you guys to get to know me on a more personal level. Thank you so much for reading! I hope you have a wonderful day/night. Sending you love, strength, and positivity.
I really love reading these kind of posts, Melina <3
I'm with you about overthinking about everything and life, lately and I personally find it really stressful, because how do you know you're going down the right path or making the right choices? Sometimes it's important to take the plunge, but sometimes it's terrifying too, haha. I am very, very excited about your new project and can't wait to hear all about it, I hope it will go well! Sending you tons of positive vibes xx
I literally think about that all the time. How will I know? Will I ever know? All I try to do is to do my best to myself and to others, and hope that I'm doing the right thing that will take me down the right path. Thanks so much for reading and commenting! Hope you've been doing well Marie 🙂 xx
I told myself I wouldn't buy anymore makeup until I used some of it up, and I am pleased to say I have not bought any in 2019 (except a foundation because I ran out!)!! I absolutely love astrology but I definitely need to learn more about it!! Its so fascinating so I just need to find the time to learn more about it!! xx
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It's totally different if you actually need the product you need to buy. But if you're buying for the sake of buying it, it's definitely not the same!
Astrology is one of the most interesting topics to learn about. When I was younger I thought it was all about that one sign you would read about in the back of magazines. To learn that there are so many other things that make up astrology is so fascinating. Thanks so much for reading and commenting 🙂 x
I believe in astrology but I need to learn more about it. I can completely relate to how you're feeling though. Lately I've been overthinking (I always do) but really having deep thoughts and feeling like I need some big change in my life. Or I just need to work harder and do more. I can't quite figure out what that's suppose to be - like what change.
And with makeup, I've really cut down on buying eyeshadows. I never really use them all up. Anything powder based and it just sits in my cosmetics box. xxx
omg I have this huge obsession with astrology a few years back. I learned so much. I didn't realize there was so much to learn in the first place!
I'm glad I'm not the only one who's been overthinking! I'm literally on the same boat as you.
omg, I use all types of makeup and eye shadow, but I'm literally not trying to buy any until I use up some of what I have, which is a little hard, because it takes forever to use up an eye shadow! Thanks so much for reading and commenting Laura xx
I have been trying not to buy too much make up either and use up what I have to reduce waste. So lovely you share these posts! I love the journal pictures, they look beautiful xx
As much as I love makeup, I don't want to be wasteful and have to throw any of it away! Thanks so much for reading and commenting 🙂 x
Yeah same x