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Another disappearing act from moi? You guys honestly be used to it by now. If you've read one of my most recent posts, you will know I'm going through it. I'm struggling just a little bit, but I'm trying to make the best out of my current situation.

Dinner with friends

For the past few months, I've been making more of an effort to make plans, and have in-person hang outs with my friends. I never realized how challenging it is to balance friends, family, and a relationship, but it is!

I think I've been doing a good job at juggling all three, while still having some time for myself. Over the past two weeks I've gotten dinner with my friend Li. The following week, me and my friend Christina hung out to celebrate her being done with all her exams!

It's been so good to spend time with those two, I really care for them so much, and nothing beats hanging out in person. Everyone's busy nowadays, and no text message/phone call could ever compare.

Haunted House with Amanda

Since I've been not feeling myself, I haven't spent much time doing anything Halloween-y. Last weekend, I was supposed to hang out with Amanda. Spontaneously, she asked me if I was down to go to some haunted houses.

At first, I was quick to want to say no. Then I really thought about it, and I realized that this is something I used to LOVE. In the end I told her yes, and I'm so happy I did.

We had a really nice time being out of the house, and doing something we both have always enjoyed.

Afterwards, we went back to her house, ate some fast food, drank some wine, and watched the latest season of Love is Blind (if you like reality tv, this is a good one). All in all, a perfect night.

Divinity 2

This has been my latest obsession. If you've been around for long enough, you will know I'm a huge fan of Dungeons & Dragons. Recently, my boyfriend told me that there's a game very similar to D&D.

He was not wrong at all. Even though it's in a videogame format, a lot of the mechanics of the game are similar. We've been playing non-stop for the past month, and it's been amazing.

We actually finished the game this week, and are already thinking of starting the game over again. It's fun because depending on what you do, the outcome can be different!

We're playing the game on the Playstation 5, but you can play it on PC as well.

Give Me All the Books

You guys are probably sick of hearing me talk about books, but it has been my saving grace over the past month and a half or so. I've been on bookstagram a lot. I've been buying books again, and have hundreds of unread books on my Kindle.

It's honestly been great to feel this passion for reading again. I'm still very far behind my Goodreads reading goal, but hopefully I'll reach my 85 books by the end of the year.

If you have any book recs, let me know!

My Comfort Blanket, J

Even with me not feeling my best, J has been there. It's been so nice to have someone there for me. Before him, I hadn't seriously dated anyone in a while, and hadn't felt that romantic companionship.

Even though I have the best friends in the world (another thing you might be tired of hearing), it's different. I have been so grateful, because he's been with me, not only for the good, but a lot of unfortunate circumstances, and my mental health struggles.

Feeling Lonely

It's funny. I've been pretty social this month. Filling my days with close friends, family, and J. And yet, I still feel so alone. I could be in the same room with all those closest to me, and I still feel distance.

I'm trying to get over this, by rationalizing that I know it's all in my head, but it's easier said than done.

Shows/Movies I’ve Watched:

• Game of Thrones House of Dragons [HBO Max]
• Rick & Morty Season 6 [Amazon Prime]
• Dahmer Episodes 3-8 [Netflix]
• Love is Blind Season 3 Episodes 1-4

Books I’ve Been Reading:

• Gods & Monsters (Serpent & Dove #3) by Shelby Mahurin
• The Hawthorne Legacy by Jennifer Lynn Barnes (The Inheritance Games #2)
• The Reaper by RuNyx (Dark Verse #2)
• The Predator by RuNyx (Dark Verse #1)
• Falling for Your Enemy by Emma St. Clair (Love Cliches #6)
• Icebreaker by Hannah Grace (UCMH #1)
• Ignite Me (Shatter Me #3)
• Below Zero by Ali Hazelwood (The STEMinist Novellas #3)
• Stuck with You by Ali Hazelwood (The STEMinist Novellas #2)
• Under One Roof by Ali Hazelwood (The STEMinist Novellas #1)
• The American Roommate Experiment by Elena Armas (Spanish Love Deception #2)
• The Emperor by RuNyx (Dark Verse #3)
• Restore Me by Tahereh Mafi (Shatter Me #4)

Games I’ve Been Playing:

• Divinity 2 [Playstation 5]

Seeing all my books listed like that, kind of impresses me. I didn't realize I've read that many books since we last chatted. How have you all been? I can't believe Halloween is next week. Time has been flowing by. I'm going to blink, and it's already going to be Thanksgiving! Well chat soon 🙂 xx