Reasons I've been away.
I have briefly explained that I've been having more than a few off weeks. Since I have come back from California, I have had more than a few upsetting situations that have made me more than unmotivated to blog. But I have to be honest. I've missed it. Today I'll explain myself, and Thursday we'll carry on. As Rick Sanchez once said, I'm back baby!
So where have I been?
My Computer broke.
I won't say that this is the main reason that I haven't posted. Last week when I needed to vent/write I realized my computer's hard drive was giving me issues. I have to take it to my genius of an uncle and see if it's gonna be an easy fix. I would hate to lose my information. Luckily all of my photos and music are saved on my external drive, but I do have all my Costa Rica footage on there, which I was starting to edit for my next YouTube video! Hopefully I'll have it fully fixed and functional within the next week. Fingers crossed!
I felt betrayed.
As you may or may not have known, I was supposed to move out with my best friend sometime this year. Things were taking a lot longer than we planned, and so she went to my other friend and they got an apartment without me. I understand her circumstances were less than ideal. The one thing that gets me is the fact that she didn't even invite me. I spent months looking for places for us, and she found a place without considering me or my feelings. I'm happy that she's happier now, but I can't help but wonder how she would have felt if I did the same thing to her. We're supposed to be best friends, but she didn't invite the person who she was planning on moving out with for the last year. Welp, I guess things happen for a reason, and my eyes are a little more open.
My heart got broken.
I'm not going to go into too much detail on this, only because this is probably the part of my life that I keep the closest to myself. Bottom line, I got my heart broken. It happens. It wasn't meant to be. Definitely put me in a funk. I still have good days and bad days, but I'm dealing with it. I have to thank Erika for being my rock in all of this. She's such an amazing friend, and I don't know what I would do if she wasn't here with me through all of this.
My Depression took a toll on me.
It happens. I don't know why, but this happened right before I got my heart broken. Maybe I should have ordered this before my other reasons, but I feel like since I deal with this on and off all the time, it seems like the worst excuse as to why I've been away. Like yes, this make a difference when you pile up all the other issues on top of it, but alone? No. I'm stronger than that.
I am happy to say that I've taken a long three weeks to feel better, but I'm finally getting there. I lost, but I am alive and conquering. I promise to give you normal content again. I missed you all! Sending you all positive vibes, strength and love. If any of you need someone to talk to through any hard times in your lives, I am more than here. Have a wonderful day.
-Melina xx
Hey hun, sorry you’ve been going through a rough time, but through it all you’ll come out on the other side much strong. Take all time you need and mend whatever needs mending. We will always be there for you. 💕
Thank you so much Megan for the kind words xx
I can't believe someone did that to you... a best friend!!! That is so awful.
She is missing out on a good friend xx
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I was a little caught off guard, specially because when you get hurt from someone doing something for you, you always think that you would never do that to them. We'll still be friends, but now I think of our friendship a little differently. It's okay though! Everything happens for a reason. Thanks for the comment! xx
Oh no, I'm sorry you have to get through those lately. I'm happy you're starting to feel better! I know you'll get through this and everything will be okay in the end. As the saying goes, this, too, shall pass 🙂
If you need someone to talk to. I'm here!!
Thank you so much for the lovely comment. You are so right, everyday things get a little bit better xx
You have my heartfelt condolences on having experienced a cluster-f*ck! Having a computer die on you is bad enough. That happened to me and I lost countless partially written documents for blog posts and never quite recovered from it.
Being left out of the new apartment arrangement by your best friend sucks. It shows what a beautiful person you are that you were happy your best friend is happy despite her having left you out. I wish I could help you with your broken heart. I've had that happen to me many times and know that pain all too well. You're a wonderful person and I'm sure you'll find someone better than the love you lost.
I too have struggled with depression a lot. I'm glad you felt up to blogging again - kudos!
Sending you positive vibes, strength and love in return!!! <3 xxoxxoxx 😀
I am pleased to inform you that I actually got my computer fixed, thank god! I am currently typing this comment to you on it!
Thank you so much for your thoughtful and beautiful comment, it means a lot to me knowing that you took the time aside to write it. Thank you for the kind words hun xxx
Melina, I'm so sorry to hear that all of this has happened to you, bad things seem to happen all at the same time for me too and sometimes a break is exactly what you need.
I'm so happy to see you're back, you're seriously such a kick ass girl.
If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to message me! <3
Thank you so much Ali! We still have to meet up for coffee in NYC! xxx
Sounds like you've been having a tough time! But it's good you have taken time out to concentrate on you!! We can all wait and will be here when you are ready!
Thank you for the love and support! I luckily was able to come up with a post for yesterday, and I have some posts ready for next week as well:) I'm back and better than ever xxx
Oh I'm so sorry you've been having a rough time, Melina - but I'm glad to hear you're starting to feel a bit better. sending you all the love and positive vibes, hoping all these tough times and feelings are behind you soon. Always there if you need to talk! Sending you love, xxxx
Thanks so much Marie! Taking it day by day, but thankfully feeling much better within the last few days xxx
Glad to hear you're back in the swing of things. When it rains it pours right? Often we think times are bad, but when the dust settles, it really was a blessing in disguise. Same thing happened to my roommate before he moved in with me, and now we have been roommates for three years! So, I'm glad those other people betrayed him, because now I have a dope roommate! Broken hearts suck, no way around it. You'll bounce back! Keep up the good work.
Thank you Louis, you always write the most thoughtful comments. You're right though, everything happens for a reason, and maybe I'll get an even better roommate! xxx
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Hey Melina, sorry you've been having such a rough time lately! When it rains it pours doesn't it? My computer went out on my too! I have to get a new one altogether but like you I also miss blogging, feels like I haven't been at it in a while. Sorry to hear about your friend and that whole situation, I hope you find a place with someone soon! Hang in there! Tough times are hopefully over soon! Xx Jen
Thanks so much Jen. You are so right! My mom always says that bad things tend to happen in threes. I think 3 bad things happened to me, so I'm good, aha! I'm glad you got a new computer hun! Can't wait to read what new content you come up with xxx
Yeah I think 3 would be the max I could handle of that!! Lol